So I think I've become my character or I unconsciously predicted my future self & made a character of it.
Haha well either way I dont know but a while I i wrote a short story & in the ending the girl couldn't feel emotions normally, such as she couldn't hold a emotion for long. She would feel that emotion in that moment & it would become a memory later.
I realized at first that I couldn't hold a grudge if my life depended on it but now I can't really feel much, i kinda have to force myself to feel positive emotions (-.-;)
I also realized I've reverted back to my anti-social self from 5 yrs ago. I hate talking to people, my mind goes in a panic & my insides scream for them to stop talking to me (>o<)
This weekend me & my youngest brother are having a party so show off our new place...im already regretting it. I know I'll want to hide off somewhere but I'll have no privacy unfortunately (>.<)
But I shall try my best!
*SIGH* I HATE entertaining people... Its killing me just thinking bout it! (>_<)
Momma & my other brother r coming tomorrow! Im soooo excited! I missed them!
Oh! Last nite I had a great dream! It was super long & all over the place but I dreamt of the perfect place I wanna live! I actually felt myself waking up when I saw it then I forced myself so go back to sleep. But it was so my heart cried for more & my eyes drank it all. It was hidden deep in the mountains, fog flowed about, there green hills & trees surrounding. Its was too beautiful to describe...
Well I'll chat again soon!
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