Leaving Cali today. Had so much fun @ the beach, SO MUCH FUN. Every1 got sunburns, its painful but enduring... well at least for me, poor SunShine :O(

Oh! Sunday I also went to the outdoor Swap Meet in Vegas n got non-prescription color contacts, they're aqua but u can barely see it, mom got different ones

Yesterday till tomorrow SunShine, her mom, me & Skywalker (Sun's other bf, now my friend) are staying in New Port Cali, the place we're @ it AMAZING! its FANCY!

Sunday my gramps took me & SunShine to the Adventure Dome in Circus Circus in Las Vegas. We stayed from 4-10pm. it was SUPER FUN!! I LOVE THAT PLACE! (^0^)9

Saturday my brother Tiger took me, momma & Bear to the movies, we saw 3! It was nice to hang out together again, I miss that (-_-)

Today my 22nd birthday. Last year my birthday was supposed. To be the end of the world haha but I slept in ;) but no really, people were saying it was THE END

So what if people think im a b****? I dont care what the hell they think. Heck! Maybe I am a b****! It makes no matter to me, im tired of people judging me!

I've been trying to workout alot so I can be fit for when I go with SunShine +others on a trip to Cali @ the beach the end of the month

There are two I wish to go to now yet I've no choice but to stop myself.

I could be the child & not bear the unspoken responsibilities that no one dares to speak of but no my conscious won't let me even think of ignoring it. Sure I deluded myself a bit in the beginning but no matter how hard I tried there it was in the back of my mind demanding I do what needs to be done & make the choices everyone else has decided to ignore.

So here I am, making choices such as these once again but dont worry I've gotten use to it, pretty sad but its fine. Its like learning not to trust the promises of others...mostly the promises of your parent(s) because no matter how much they wish to fulfill that promise it just can't be done so I've learned not to waste my feelings in believing it'll come true.

Sometimes i just can't stand my patheticness, sometimes i disgust myself & then again i dont even care what i think about myself most of the time...i can't even trust a promise i made to myself

Accident prone today. Scraped my phone & cracked the screen when I fell. Almost got squashed by a giant TV. Tripping all day too

Had alot of fun with SunShine these past couple of days. Stayed nite @ gramps place & leaving for home today with mom & Chica

Staying with SunShine & havin fun! Got alot of catching up to do (^_^)

Bear has been acting like a grizzly all morning ((^.^)) On our way with the whole gang to Vegas. I get to stay with SunShine! v(^0^)v

Bear has forbidden me to wash dishes twice but when it comes down to it he'd rather I wash them then himself

Worked out @ gym today, I'll b sore tomorrow. I wake up everyday @ 7am, I can see myself forcing my body to get up

Broke a vessel in my eye the day before yesterday, its only just getting better

Ahhhh!! Its so DAMN hot in my frickin room!! All the other rooms have a cooler n only have a giant fan that circulates the hot air \\(>_<)//

At the DMV renewing my license. Just hope the camera doesn't focus on all the fat on my face. I've been gaining weight so that does NOT help (>_< )( >_<)

He's still in jail tho, so they had to do it thru a video screen n a phone but they seem to love each other so im sure it'll be a good marriage (^^)

Moms friend Chica got married yesterday! Her fiance had court yesterday n the judge approved their marriage so they got hitched!

Going to court today for mommas friends husband. Its in Vegas so maybe ill get those yummy nuts from Sunflower (^^)

The moon is almost completely full tonight. There are hardly any stars. The moonlight fills the air into something calm & sweet

Tried a lil alcohol to ready myself for the rating imma get paid for. Had 2 shots n im feeling a lil buzzed, mostly in my legs. Also have a headache :-/

Also had stayed the night @ the Santa Fe casino for free! The beds were sooooooooo very wonderful! The parts of a song filled me "I never wanna leave this bed"

Back home. Got paid to rate a show @ Planet Hollywood. Going back to rate alcohol for like 75$ I hate it but id do it for the $$