I've been feeling lonely lately but for what I know not. I have my mother and youngest brother here, plus her friend Chica & her son Baby now living with us along with their dogs Convict & Sweetpea.
Maybe I miss the peace and quiet or perhaps its the time with just family. Either way I dont know (-_-;)
I've been making a scarf/scoodie/hood thing lately, no pattern just the thoughts from my head. Its starting to look like the hood thing the ladies wore in the time of the Knights. A just hood thing only showing their face and covering their necks. Since im knitting it I dont know how to quite end the top, its not as easy as it looks (>.<)
I've been trying to keep writing my books but im somewhat at a blank point. Im just waiting for the Sun to guide me but its taking longer to rise, i might even have to take back my letter before it has a chance to read it. I dont have anyone else unfortunately to help me, I fear they will all laugh as they have before.
The kittens have been sleeping with me. I constantly remind myself they are not mine to keep.
More and more I have become lazy and unwanting to do anything im asked. I know I am wrong yet I am too weak to control this I i bear for some unknown reason. I only wish to be left alone in my cave of comfort. yet I still apologize to my family for not caring what they say or wish me to do.
I fear I will continue this way in life....
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