My New Discovery

I'm 99% sure I have a panic disorder since I was around 8. I'm 21 now and I've had little panic attacks here and there but thankfully nothing like when I was a child. I'm trying to cope with it as best as I can without having gone to the doctors. Hospitals are expensive nowadays and my family's not do as well as others so I'd rather deal with the pain by myself. I guess I'm the kind of person who never tells anyone whats wrong so as not to worry anyone, i'm very secretive like that. Although i'm always hoping my best friends try to help me but they don't live in the same town as I do so it's hard.