Missing them now

I hate the desert, this heat is killing me. I use to live in the forest and mountains, they always made me feel so much better, I miss it so much. My father owns part of a mountain so when i would visit him i would just love being outside.
Now im allergic to everything unfortunatly but I still try to run through the field of flower that grow on the mountain. He lives in a different state and he hardly ever comes to see us so we have to go see him but we dont get the chance to do that much either. I dont mind though, hes never been there so i dont miss him.
I cant wait for the winter, my allergys dont act up then and most of the bugs who seem to love me dont live during winter. Plus you cant fix summer heat like winters cold.
I might get to go there next month, my childhood friend is getting married so I really want to be there for her.

So Far So Good (^_^)

So my panic attacks have subsided nicely but theres always that one place that makes me feel horrible. This weekend I went to vegas and hanged out with my best friend. She moved into a nice new place so I got to have a whole room to myself, it was nice but I wish I couldve spent more time with her.
I saw my uncle whom I haven't seen in a while cuz hes a jerk and gives me panic attack when he gets mad at me.
Now that im back home I have to pack. We're moving to vegas as soon as possible and we haven't packed much. My little brother came back with us from vegas to help out. Hes been staying with my grandpa out there. My other little brother might be staying in pahrumpto finish school since his old one messed him up so if he transfers then he'll be lowered a grade.
I guess thats all for now :)

My New Discovery

I'm 99% sure I have a panic disorder since I was around 8. I'm 21 now and I've had little panic attacks here and there but thankfully nothing like when I was a child. I'm trying to cope with it as best as I can without having gone to the doctors. Hospitals are expensive nowadays and my family's not do as well as others so I'd rather deal with the pain by myself. I guess I'm the kind of person who never tells anyone whats wrong so as not to worry anyone, i'm very secretive like that. Although i'm always hoping my best friends try to help me but they don't live in the same town as I do so it's hard.

Hi I'm SweetPea & I just started my own blog (^_^)

This is my first time doing one & i'm not completly sure of how to use one fully yet since i'm a little technology challenged (-_-;)

So any advice is always welcomed! (^-^)b