Im very drunk right now. Was thinking bout suicide once again. I did send a long text to my mom which is probably making her cry alot

2nite I numb my sorrows with a half bottle of wine. It may not be ideal but its the only comfort i can find. No one understands this pain, NO ONE. Its too much!

Planning to move to Viva Las Vegas in a year or less. Mommas buying a 5 bedroom house :D

Check 'Deep Fried Twinkies' of my bucket list :-D

Went to festival tonight. Had a HORRID time in the beginning but later on I was happier to be with great friends tho the best one couldn't come.....

That moment when you're about to tell everything you're hiding to your best friend but then at the last possible second think better of it......

Im beginning to hate this day.... weeks of plans thrown away. I think all the stress is just creeping up on me. My heart is just feeling very bitter right now

There are some things I dont want to talk about with people n that thing now is my puppy Thumbelina who is missing n most likely dead

....my daddy cat has maggots in his tummy and i just found my dead mommy cats body....at least they're child is ok